Cursed

As if to say that days would not pass, and then my heart would stop beating this rythm that it has found so profoundly comfortable.

As if to say that a breath would not leave my lungs even though my body required it's departure only to allow it entrance once again, despite it's pain and burn.

To say that I am not valid, my words are not spoken, my thoughts are not real, and my future is at best my own shame.

To say that it is not my right to live, or feel love , and I have condoned myself to this. Then why have I been put here and what would be my reason to live?

I would say in truth, I have done you a great disgrace to prolong my burden onto you, and this life.

I would say I wish to part without the anger , with peaceful waves of a quiet mind.

As if you would tell me , only to late, my love and loyalty was not so true and anbundant,and warmth in your cold domaine.

I will question, whilst I fight your crashing waves of darkness and hatred.

Hopeless

Like the wind that blows upon my face
I feel I have already left this place

As the rain falls with passing years
So does my hope,and so does my tears

And with each and every passing day
I lose my path, and lose my way

Like if the sky would change to night
before I've found my wrong , or find my right

Ever changing I follow the seasons
looking for answers , searching for reasons

Love seeks what is of me
but love is below me, and above me


The darkness Is my home
and inside myself I will remain alone.

Dark Angel

Lost and fragile I see him there , I feel him there .I feel his touch , it feels like fire. scared and broken I am weary , but see the truth in his eyes and know.
I feel his heart calling mine, I know he is lonely and it is my pain because we are one. I stay a shadow in his mind and don't let him forget I need him. I feel it heavy, my air is robbed slowly from my lungs but I continue to breath for him. I know when the pain is over he will embrace me so that I can see light while he sees darkness. Haunting me ,soothing me, he reminds me I am real. He keeps me here when I want to be lost in my mind and retreat from this world.Forever he keeps me here, he is my dark angel.

Claimed

A Plight, my ship has sailed to sea.
my heart an anchor, not set free.

I wish my body to float ashore,
but I sink to corals, and float no more.

All is lost, but I don't give up hope,
as the tiny current pulls me afloat.

If it should be this day not come,
then I would wish to see the sun.

A drifter in reach, he pulls me aboard,
sets me gently upon his boat floor.

I feel his gaze across my face,
and know alas I am safely placed.

He croons to me, but my body is broken
he spots my locket , my only token.

Inside he will find the answer to me,
I was broken hearted, I belong to the sea.

My Universe

A still heart beat
To sooth my soul

To help me breath
To make me whole

I want to float in your sky

The honest words
To sooth my mind

To give me strength
To stop my time

You float in my sky

A confession to make
I make it vain

I feel it at night
I feel it in rain

The sweetest pain

A proffession to me
It's said the same

you feel it at night
you feel it in rain

The sweetest pain

A star I watch
To make me dream

I cry

A moon to watch
To calm your space

You sigh

I lay in my head
I hear what you said
I see in red

You see me
Think about what can be
You are my mystery.